Monday, March 29, 2010
I really don't want it to be this way but i just don't like being forced into doing things that is not my normal practice.
Once, twice, maybe thrice (
It sucks to weigh my principles with you, especially when you don't even see it from the same point of view as me.
I don't understand why is it so hard to move on without causing much disruption to your life now.
Maybe put it in this way, people burn things, throw away things to forget certain things so as to move on. Oh well, at least that is what happens in the drama. But those are real significant things. Like, your husband dead blah blah. Those sad until si qu huo lai kind.
To me, i don't feel that the past is significant to this extent and hence you don't really need me to do those kind of stuff and get the so-called reassurance from it.
I don't like to see you upset, I don't want it to end like this but I'm afraid...
If i give in again this time round, what is going to happen in the future?
Minus away things that I was hesitant to do, i thought my intentions and feelings were already clear enough.
I care for you, really. But i just can't make myself behave and change accordingly.
You want me to make it up to you, i really don't know how.
With my already poor reputation, i just want everything to die off, let time erase all the bad things i have done but you never seem to allow me to do that.
I'm ashamed of myself and I'm trying to be a better person but you never seem to see that.
All that you see are my wrongdoings, my stubbornness, my inability...
:( I'm really not such a terrible person.
i came to shout at 11:47:00 PM
