Tuesday, March 25, 2008
i made a discovery today n it goes sth like...
amongst so many things that happen daily, if you think carefully, there is definitely one happy and one sad thing at least, happening each day.
happy things n sad things come tog. its not an either/or kinda thing.
really.
for eg. yest was happy bcos blocks ended, phy wasnt really tt touch n i went makan wit elise jiemin xinyi. nice ppl, nice food.
but on the other hand, i came home n was super stressed out by my bro talking abt how impt it is to score well for As, get a scholarship blah blah blah.
i was so stressed out tt i went online n daoed my fav 1030 show, n played games.
and today, the half-a-class-outing (ben zk xh yq me anni caryn suwen jinhuey) is really quite fun.
cycling @ ecp. chionging n dying.
the apple pie + ice water.
the subway melt + m&m cookie.
the bowling games which i played from bad to worse.
the crazy thot/action of gg to bugis just to eat bak ku teh.
n the mahjong n taidi (ltr) online.
its really damn fun thou i kinda miss jiemin n elise not being there too.
however, today.
i also learnt abt some stuff.
the feeling of being forgotten or left out or perhaps informed later.
sux pretty much.
esp when ure talking abt ppl whom u thot u were close with or at least, okay with.
things didnt matter that much last time i guessed.
when i didnt know or didnt think too much about it.
and all these problems (maybe only to me) just aggravate until now, i cant help but feel angry? disappointed? hurt?
but i think, its too late for me to do anything.
just like, its too late for me to mind all these stuff that is happening.
people are constantly changing and thats damn sad really.
i wonder, is it possible for me to hide in my shell so tt i wil be protected from everything?
otherwise, is it possible for me to have the power to tell whos genuine n whos not, whos trustworthy/reliable n whos not...
i really dont think i can take all these mental stress anymore.
i miss my darling but i really shouldnt call her cos she has her probs too worry abt too.
i came to shout at 10:47:00 PM
