Monday, February 02, 2004
i upset myself.
i disappoint myself.
n finally, i
killed myself.
i din noe tt it meant so much.
i seriouly dun.
nt until u told me off.
nt until u told me wats rong wif me.
and nows.
all i can say is, u r rite.
u hav ur hopes on me.
bt ive let u down nows.
u were tinkin 4 me.
my future.
bt itz half gone nows.
u opposed me.
bt itz no use nows.
why cant evrythng b like it used 2 b?
like sec1...
or p6... p5... p4...
ive changed.
y cant i b da same old me?
i miss myself.
my life has changed. my focus has changed.
i was rong. rites.
bt i cannot do anythng nows.
bt cant u try n understand me?
cant u try n tink frm my pt of view?
i had no choice.
i was forced.
mentally.
im mentally dead nows.
no feelings 4 anythng.
i dun like tis.
bt i juz cant revive myself.
i came to shout at 12:40:00 AM
